I haven't posted in a long time but I decided I would sit down and write what has been on my mind lately. You see I am not a depressed person but lately I haven't been myself. I usually enjoy dancing and music but for some reason I have found myself not enjoying life like I did a few months ago. Yes, things have changed and I am chasing my dreams and goals as an actor. I am struggling to pay my bills but I refuse to give up. Making the move from Arkansas to Michigan to Illinois was a huge step for me and it has been a year since I have made that step. I am a background actor for the Chicago Shows such as Chicago Med, PD and Fire. I absolutely love being on set and I realize that is when I am the happiest. The point of my story is find your happiness and sometimes it is so hard but once you find it, that is the first step. I do however miss my family in Arkansas especially my kids and sister and nieces and nephews. There are some days I want to give up and go back to Arkansas but really what would that prove? Not only would it prove that I am a failure once again but I would be miserable at a dead end job and not achieve anything. My daughter is my number one fan, she has told me I can achieve anything, I wonder where she had heard that before. HAHa! Like mother like daughter. I have realized in order to succeed you must love yourself and set goals so that is what I am doing. I am not perfect by far and I have made several mistakes but I am still a good person and a good mom. There are days I feel like I have failed at life and I get up and keep fighting every day. I can't change things from the past however I can change my present life and my future. Don't let anyone control your life and tell you what to do or how to live your life. One of the hardest things for is to forgive myself and love myself, I have realized I may not be able to forgive myself but I do love myself and will accomplish my goals. I wake up every day and tell myself I can do it and I will be successful. Keep working toward your goals. Love yourself!!
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1. Has anyone actually gone caroling?
While it may always be shown in holiday movies caroling has actually been on the sharp decline for some time now. According to the Pew Research Center the percentage of people who went caroling as a child dropped by almost half when asked if they were going to continue the tradition. Considering most people don't enjoy singing for strangers, including myself, this change in tradition is one I can understand.
2. Christmas cards.
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Besides your dentist or doctor people don't really send christmas cards to extended family and friends anymore. Surprisingly this used to be one of the more popular holiday traditions celebrated in America. Pewforum.org reported an almost 20% decrease in people who sent cards and people who plan to send cards. I personally would love to see this tradition saved considering sending the basic Merry Christmas or Happy Thanksgiving text to friends isn't always sufficient enough.
3. Putting up the Christmas Tree.
When I was a kid putting up the christmas tree was a very big deal. It was always huge and extravagant with ornaments of all kinds. This is still a reality for a lot of people but it has become a little less common. Whether it is small and skinny or full and decorated putting up a Christmas tree is still one of the most celebrated traditions.
4. Gifting baked goods.
butter cookies on plate
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Giving and receiving baked goods for special events is still very mainstream in America but the idea of doing it specifically for the holidays has become less and less popular. If we could try and keep this tradition going I would greatly appreciate it. Baked goods will always be considered a great gift to me.
5. Attending religious services.
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Christmas is already beginning to see Christmas a cultural practice rather than a religious one. This may be the reason that less people plan to attend religious services during the holidays compared to when their were kids. It could also be because your parents at there to wake you up.
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