As much as I hate to break it to you all, I never fell in love.
All of my friends can tell you that I am a hopeless romantic. I would get emotional and happy for the tiniest love action that someone would do for another person. I would squeal, ridiculously say "Awwwwwwwww" and always ask for the details and not just a general storyline. Sorry, but as an English major now, I adoreeeeeee the storyline.
However, as much as I hear from all my friends talking about their relationships (some starting, others ending), I sometimes think to myself how would I be if I was in love?
First off, I can tell you, "love" for me is more than love. It's an unbearable feeling that sometimes you want to hug it, grasp for it, consume it, or sometimes it can wickedly blindfold you and shatter you. You are literally in a coin toss with love.
I am a reserved kind of person. I enjoy my solitude. I had never thought of this question before in my entire life. Fine, most of you would say, Well, Jen, you're only young. You still have not experienced true love. Yes, I know, but sometimes I want that feeling that all these corny couples around me feel. I'm in no rush.
I would not call myself a loner. I enjoy long conversations, having tea, hitting the Broadway streets, walks in the park, going to museums, and just learning more every day as much as I can. I'm very into the whole concept of reading romance, but I can go into mystery, philosophical, crime, and very much more. If you can recommend me a book to read, I give you my word that I will read it.
The concept of love has always been a mystery to me. The music helps me to understand it when I have questions. I'm not talking about music if today, I'm talking about Bonnie Tyler, Foreigner, Air Supply, Chicago, and the rest of them! And the movies! Well, I can give you a bunch that for me portrays true love: Forrest Gump, Amelie, Pride and Prejudice, Frankie and Johnny, One Day, 500 Days of Summer, Casablanca, etc..
I always say to myself, when the time is right, love will come. Why go out and search for it? Let the universe do its own thing. Love will come when the time is right. But if I fall in love, oh my friends, I already know I will be lost in the person's arms, swinging back and forth, creating our story. It is hard to say how would I act, but you will be the first to know.
As the days go by, my life has taken its tolls in good and bad times, but to have that little romance is just an illusion for now. Who knows what could happen in the future. I only hope for the best.
