There once was a time where all of my friends were becoming zombies. I didn't understand how they were all obsessed with this "Grey's Anatomy" show that had suddenly seemed to take over Netflix and their lives. They were turning down plans and skipping classes just to stay in their rooms all day and watch episode after episode. It seemed juvenile to me, to indulge so deeply into a fictional TV show about some doctors at a hospital and their sex lives. I vowed I would never watch it, passing by it every time I scrolled through Netflix to find a new show to watch, hearing it call out "pick me, choose me, love me." But dammit Shonda Rhimes, you sucked me in too.

"Give it a shot, a couple episodes won't hurt." 11 seasons later, here I am.

Season one came and went faster than I remember. The only part of the show I really cared for was the premature tension between Meredith and Derek (THANK GOD THEY ARE PAST THAT POINT NOW). By the end of the season though, I found myself pining for more. I needed to know what was in store for the interns next season. I found myself becoming the person I made fun of just a couple weeks earlier... I was a Grey's Junkie.

George O'Malley was undoubtedly my favorite character. Shonda, your development on his character was impeccable and he was easily the most genuine and loving person on that show. I totally understand how Callie forgave him in season four. How could you not? He's got that little fluffy puppy vibe. He just can't make you mad.

Shonda even sucks you into the patients. Like, Denny Duquette.. OK Shonda. ALRIGHT. Bring in a handsome average Joe who needs a heart transplant, only to have him fall in love with one of the most naive interns, and create a beautiful love story. It's secret because in the hospital, it's illegal, but it creates some sort of Romeo and Juliet type thing. I love you for that. But I just hated you after the LVAT wire was cut. You really did us dirty on that one. What makes it even worse is she continued to write Denny back in for some episodes (for emotionally ruining reasons). How are we supposed to mourn him when he keeps coming back???

And don't even get me started on Season 5, Episode 24. I will hate you to eternity for that. You blind side every single Seattle Grace employee AND every single viewer of the show. I went on a three week strike of Grey's after that, granted it was nearly impossible, but how on earth are you going to kill somebody off that way and expect us to be okay with it? It's plain rude.

And then finally Shonda solidifies Meredith and Derek. Thank God. I would've just exploded if she didn't. I was so happy and relieved. On top of it, she also has them all pass their boards, except April Kepner, which I was also really happy about because I am not a Kepner fan so I was happy to see her leave. A+, great job Shonda.

BUT PLOT TWIST, SHE COMES BACK. Can you stop doing me dirty Shonda???

Except I guess the fact that you have Karev, Shepard, Sloan, and Avery all in one show together in multiple scenes makes it okay. There's just so much beauty in that group that my heart stops. And then my heart actually stopped 30 days after Mark Sloan was hospitalized and the life support was shut off at 5:00. You really, really ruined me there. Right when i thought I was OK after George you go and do that... ok Shonda, ok.

Meredith and Derek seem to survive everything, so thank you Shonda for keeping my people safe... except that one time you killed off Derek. Yeah. I haven't gotten there yet and I'm dreading it considering I'm only a few episodes away from it. Soooo, I'll probably go back to hating you then. But as of right now, I love you for keeping Derek in Seattle.

You've created the greatest series I have ever watched and I'm ready to catch up to present day episodes. Hats off to you, Rhimes. But please, keep a crash cart near me for when the season ruins me once more.