If I were to leave anything behind, anything at all -- here's what I've learned, here's what I want you to know, here's what I want for you:

I'll be the first to admit that I'm not the most content with my current situational life status. Working non-stop and never sleeping all in the hopes of surviving a 2,500+ mile trail. But know that it's only temporary, because I will hike that goddam trail, in its entirety. Find the things you love and that bring you happiness. Set goals and dream dreams, work hard for the things you want, work like you've never worked before, do whatever means necessary to get there. Don't waste your time giving up. They will come to you and you will feel such pride.

Don't be afraid to break the limiting stigmas of society, in fact, I encourage it. I hate the sound of their silent voices edging us down their beaten paths. We're all young at heart, age is just a number with pressures that only exist in your mind, we can do whatever we want. Breaking free of these invisible rules and pressures and realizing that you're free and can do whatever your little heart desires is one of the most satisfying things you can do for yourself.

Appreciate the diversity around. Listen, watch, learn.

The adventures I've endured, each and every single one, were all necessary and I wouldn't change a second. So do me a favor; go on one, go on several, go alone, or go to a foreign country where you know no one. It will better you in ways you never thought possible. You will learn so much about yourself. You'll meet so many new people who will make your soul flourish. Go.

Humanity in general lacks serious compassion in today's world full of hate. I try hard to put myself in others' shoes and attempt to understand what they're going through. It's not always easy, but it's one my favorite things; when you can connect with a human on a deeper level from them sharing their greatest triumphs or lowest sorrows. Shared sorrow is half the sorrow, and shared joy is double the joy. This is a privilege, and it's taken for granted far too often.

I have loved, deeply. I may not have loved the way you would have hoped or envisioned, but I did. I think as beings that crave love, we attempt to shield ourselves and loved ones from any kind of pain the world brings on, but sometimes we shouldn't. Sometimes we should feel the soul-crushing pain that comes with heartache, it proves how deeply we've loved and are loved. I want you to feel like half of you is missing, and then put yourself back together again when you re-discover that all the pieces were there all along.

When I'm hurt or upset, I go into this shell and avoid all forms of communication. Eventually I'll come back out and deal with things accordingly. I can say that going into those shells and hermitting for whatever time I feel necessary is the right thing for me. Find your way of dealing with anger or disappointment and execute. Find your coping mechanisms and relish in them when necessary. Take note of your parts within your reactions, they'll teach you things.

Always go above and beyond when it comes to showing someone how much you care about them. Send them snail mail cards, care packages, hug them every single time you see them, send them heart emojis, anything. People crave this, and it makes them feel good.

I am terrible at taking care of myself, constantly on the go and over-working myself and never sleeping and always sick. The reality is, it will catch up with you. So I will gracefully pass on the advice that so many give to me and I never take; take time for yourself, take a bubble bath or get a pedicure or go to the movies alone, do something for you once in a while and don't you dare feel guilty about it, you deserve it.

Find people in life that bring out the best in you, and you them. Friends, true friends, help us do the things we need to do, that we have to do, but demand an insane amount of courage, bravery and gumption. Keep searching for good people in the world, I promise there's more than you think. Cherish the moments in life when you know you've picked the right ones, and they you.

Write everything down. Trust. You'll thank me one day.

Every good or bad feeling you feel from your relationships will teach you something if you let it. Be patient, if someone is meant to be in your life, they will be. If someone wants to be in your life, they'll work for it. Don't put pressure on people/situations that aren't meant to be. Don't put pressure on yourself to feel or be a certain way. Cherish yourself and relish in your relationships; cultivate them. Be kind to yourself, be your beautiful self and you'll be loved, as you deserve from whom you allow.

I believe in soul mates. I'd like to believe they last through countless lifetimes. I read this quote once and it struck me in the most profound way, so I'll just leave this here for you: "When you meet that person, a person, one of your soul mates, let the connection, relationship be what it is. It may be five minutes, five hours, five days, five months, five years, a lifetime. Let it manifest itself, the way it is meant to. It has an organic destiny. This way if it stays or if it leaves, you will be softer from having been loved this authentically. Souls come into, return, open and sweep through your life for a myriad of reasons, let them be how and what they are meant." -Nayyirah Waheed

I hate when people offer their sound life advice when they're stuck in a career they hate and life they resent. Take into consideration all options and repercussions and then do what you want. Live a life you're proud of. It may not be what's best for you mom or your life's direction or your bank account, but do it anyway. If you think it's the best option for you, do it. The failures you create from doing things yourself are what build your character. The victories you celebrate from doing things yourself are some of your greatest triumphs. *Everything in moderation*

Happiness is a feeling, not a destination, so stop viewing it that way. Happiness is found in the small moments and tiny victories. The greatest victories are grown from small seeds. The universe craves your contentment. The more you realize how fleeting life's most beautiful moments are, the more beautiful they'll become. Be present in your life, you'll find more joy and feel happiness more often.

Be you. Why be afraid of being who you are when what's really scary is wasting time being someone else when you can be happy being yourself.

I guess what I want you take from all of this rambling is that I'm humbled. Humbled that my life includes so many wonderful people and experiences that continue to teach me things I never thought possible. I want you to know that I felt great joys often. I am whole in the matter of loving to be loved. Thank you for making my life something I learned to treasure greatly. I want all of these things for you, and so much more. Feel deeply, learn as much as you can, crave the knowledge that only experience can provide. You deserve the world, so get it, and don't waste your time giving up.

All my love and acceptance.