First, I am sorry and I love you.
I remember when we were in 8th grade and you walked up to me and told me of this cute older guy you were talking to. You just getting out of, what we considered at the time, a serious relationship I remember warning you to be careful. Little did I know the impact that "older guy" would make on your life. Since the minute we became friends I knew you were a lover. You love with your whole heart and every part of your soul. You have the ability to have people hurt you and still somehow love them through it with every ounce of your being. You have always been a phenomenal friend to me from the minute I met you and never once did I doubt how genuine of a person you were. So when this boy came into your life I was nervous, to say the least. Basing all of my judgment from movies and TV shows, dating the older mysterious guy never works. But for you, Bailey, it did. When you started dating him your whole persona changed. I always envied how you knew exactly who you were and what you wanted. I feel you were so confident because you were so loved. You were the light of Tyler's life. Though we drifted in high school it was still so very obvious how much he loved and cared for you. I remember going to your house and seeing your face light up when you would talk about him.
Bailey, you lost your soulmate. And that is something all the "I'm sorry"s and "I love you"s in the world cannot fix. At his funeral, something the pastor said really stuck with me. He said, "sadness come in waves", that really does ring true. Some days there are rough waters even the most skilled sailors wouldn't think to venture out into, and other days it is little waves that you almost find peaceful. For you, I hope the latter is more prevalent. The thing about the ocean is there are always going to be waves, but I want you to find solace in the fact that you will never have to face these waves alone. You have such a wonderful support system that will be there to hold you up even when it feels too hard to stand on your own. I cannot even pretend to fathom the pain you are going through, but instead, I want to come to you as a form of support through this hard time. I know we are not nearly as close as we used to be, but I still love you as if we were back in 5th grade together making up dances without a worry in the world. Bailey, you may have lost your soul mate, but I promise he will always be with you. I will always be with you. If you want to cry for hours from the sadness or you want to watch hours of funny movies to somewhat get your mind off things, I will be here. You will forever be my Bails and I will forever be your Meggers. You now have another amazing guardian angel.
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