I try to normally have a pretty level head when it comes to decision making, and I really try to analyze my options before I go full force impulsive mode. I've come to find that it is really easy to get lost in the idea of something, rather than the reality of it. Thinking realistically about the things that you want is the hardest thing to do. It takes serious super powers to be able to see the pros and cons of a situation and still make the right decision based off of those realizations.

For myself, I know that when I really want something it's hard for me to see the possible bad outcomes of choosing that because of how badly I want it. I think we probably all struggle with that sometimes. It's really hard for me to tell myself no, kind of like an internal pressure I put on myself to make the right choice, which usually leads to me having an internal battle between taking that leap or staying safe. I really want to be the type of girl who isn't scared to take risks, but I often have to remind myself that my mind has a lot more courage than I do and that my imagination tends to cloud my reality. Sometimes I get lost in my head and can think I'm invisible, while actually the world can see me in full force (usually making a fool out of myself). I think that wanting to be someone or having the idea of the type of person you want to be or strive to look or act like, can cloud who you really are. I have to tell myself a lot of the time that most of the ideas we have of who people should be, how they should act or how they should look, are just norms that society has squashed into our minds, when really none of those things are normal. We should treat other how we want to be treated, that's hard to find in todays world. It's easy to say that and believe in the idea of that, but it's hard to actually do that.

I think this happens to most of us in relationships too. Whether you let your imagination run wild before your crush even knows who you are, planning your wedding, decorating the inside of your future home (hahaha me) that kind of stuff, or searching for something less than you deserve because your insecurities have taken over your judgement. Either one of these things can be detrimental to the way you look at future relationships. Having unrealistic ideas of love because of what you have read or seen in movies makes it easy for you to fall in love with the idea of someone loving you, not actually falling in love with the person. It is just as easy for us to have cloudy judgement when it comes to past heartbreaks. It is easy for us to get stuck in our heads, but not everyone is the same. Who you love is who you love and it is hard for us to judge ourselves based on the outcome of a past love, because if someone has wronged you in a relationship that doesn't mean that you stop loving them. The pace that you can move forward in life after a heartbreak is your own. Love isn't something that just goes away so having it cloud your ideas of what love should be like is normal, just don't make those ideas permanent.

I am a firm believer in the fact that God has someone placed out in the world for everyone. Take the time God gives you to grow closer to him while still looking for that special person he has for you. Don't let your ideas of what love should be cloud what actually is.