Losing my father does not define me, but it shaped my outlook on life. When I was 10 I didn’t fully understand the effect that it would have on me until I got a little older.I then realized that I would never have my dad in my life again.He wouldn’t be here to meet my first boyfriend, for my sweet 16, the day I got my license, for prom, graduation, college move-in day or even my wedding day.But this significant event has taught me so much about myself.
It has taught me…
1. I am so much stronger than I think I am.
2. I am very independent.This had to make me grow up really fast so I am the type of girl that will always want to do things on her own and not need reassurance or help from others.
3. I know that my dad would not want me to be upset and cry that he is not here.He would want me to live life to the fullest and live out his legacy.
4. He is watching over me and I know I am making him proud.
5. It’s okay to be upset, there will always be good and bad days, but remain confident and make sure the good outweighs the bad by always staying positive
6. Just because you cry doesn’t make you weak.
7. A smile and hug can go a long way. Sometimes people don’t know what to say, sometimes a simple gesture is enough.
Above all my dad taught me to never give up and to keep fighting every battle you are facing.With two and a half years of chemotherapy and radiation treatments, my dad never chose to throw in the towel.He was determined to fight this battle head on and give everything he had.This is why I choose to never give up, as he is watching over me I want to show him that I am living out his legacy.So no matter what is thrown at me I will take everything with full grace and strength.I will never give up and I will continuously fight hard and I will always be daddy’s little girl.
