It is so hard for me to write.

To sit down and use words,

To make sentences,

To organize thoughts.

It is so hard for me to write.

To try.

To know what I am feeling.

Actually feeling… about you.

It is so hard for me to write.

Why?

Because I don’t know how to write

With feelings I don’t know I have.

It is so hard for me to write.

Hard to look and not know what I’m looking at.

Hard to frown and not know why I’m sad.

Hard to hide and not know why I’m scared.

I have no words to write.

My want is too strong.

My heart is too weak.

My body refuses to produce what I need

To write words of you.

I have tried many times to sit down

And write you a letter of my affection,

Of my care,

Of my power in your presence,

But each time,

Nothing comes out.

Maybe there is an explanation,

Or maybe there isn’t

Maybe it is because I’d rather show you

Than write it to you

Or because I want to say it to you