People come into our lives every day and then walk out. Then so rarely you find someone who stays, and who adds to the group of people who truly mean something to you. Whether it's a boyfriend, girlfriend, brother, sister, or best friend, they all mean the same. You love them and share parts of your heart with them, and thank God for letting these great people walk into your life, and making you have reasons to smile every day. Life seems great until you lose one of them. It doesn't seem like a lot, people leave every day, but this is different. This breaks you in a way that you can't even imagine until you go through it. I had this happen to me, and let me tell you, it sucks. Two months ago I got a phone call that ripped my heart out. My best friend had told me the one thing you don't want to hear, " We can't be best friends anymore."
It takes a moment to fully realize what they said, and when you do, you find yourself sobbing into your knees as she repeats over and over I'm sorry. In a way, it's almost worse than a breakup with your boyfriend or girlfriend. You know you lost the person who would be there to be your shoulder to cry on, who was the other part of you, who knew you better than anyone in the world is not someone you can call yours anymore. That is what breaks you. Every piece of you feels like this isn't real like it's a dream. It's not a dream, and it is something that when you wake up in the morning you'll have to deal with. I learned that the hard way. I cried for 12 hours, and it didn't stop. When it was finally over, I felt like a part of me was missing. The person who was a part of all my inside jokes, my selfies, and my texts that I would laugh so hard at were gone.
To all of those out there who have best friends, give them a hug, tell them you love them and don't take advantage of their love. I don't have mine anymore, and it kills me every day because even though we're still friends that cloud will hang over your head and you'll know you will always miss having that best friend in your life. I miss mine like crazy and wish we could have done all the things we had said we'd one day do. The loss of a best friend kills you, and I hope nobody has to go through what I did.
