Dear Long Distance Relationships,

I just want to start this letter off by saying, I harbor all kinds of resentment towards you. You suck, and I mean that with every single fiber of my being. If I could get close enough to you to see the whites of your eyes, I would look at you and scream every single expletive in the book.

Who are you to keep me from my favorite person? Why do you force me to spend days and nights thinking about all of the memories I am missing out on making with them? Why do you force me to feel emotions so strongly, stronger than I ever thought I would be feeling, in my mere 18 years of life? And negative emotions at that! Longing, sadness, resentment, anger, panic, I mean the list could be as long as a CVS receipt for God's sake.

You force me to get on a Facetime call every night and stare at them through my iPhone 11 screen just so I can feel some sort of connectedness. To fulfill the human need to actually BE with the person you love, even if it's only hearing their scratchy voice over a bad wifi connection.

What kind of sick person do you have to be to make me worry if they still love me or not? To make me wonder if texting me with shorter responses or taking longer to reply means that the feelings are fading? To make me become this irrational nightmare of a partner who feels like they need to be constantly reassured that we aren't on the verge of a breakup? But of course, also make sure that I rarely ever ask for this reassurance, because God forbid I become so annoying about it that THAT is what eventually leads to the breakup. And, oh, do NOT even get me started on what it feels like when I haven't felt their touch for weeks and weeks. Screw you for keeping from having a hand firmly clasped in mine, or a chest to lay my head on. You deserve the worst for that one.

Finally, I never wanted you in my life, Long Distance Relationships. I never planned on having to deal with you, and yet here I am. I know you will never get any easier to put up with, but I know that at the end of all this, when I can finally be with them again, the awful period of time that I spent with you will be worth it.

Worst Wishes,

- Emma