Being lonely in a world that you isolated yourself in sucks.
You know that you have the power to get out of it but that takes actually putting yourself out there and that’s so terrifying.
What if you’re the friend that everyone gossips about when you’re not there.
What if you’re the one that everyone thinks is so annoying but they don’t ever say anything.
So you just stay silent and alone because that’s better than being popular and never knowing you’re hated.
But on the off chance that you’re liked.. is it worth it?
Is it worth adjusting your schedule, personality, and self to really try?
You’ve been like this for so long because something somewhere somehow someone conditioned you to think that you’re less.
Why?
Narrow that down and digest it. Really absorb it. Then accept the fact that you’re so much more than whoever was nasty enough to themselves that they had to bring you down with them. That’s great in theory. Maybe they actually attacked some truth and that’s heartbreaking.
You look into the mirror and never think that you’ll ever be anything more. That’s what’s not true. No matter who or what you are you’re always more than the person who made you feel like less. Always.
