So, I was recently told by a friend of mine that, she thought I was gay the first time we met. I am not bothered by this, I am just wondering if every girl thinks this about me. I guess I don't help because I am always making jokes that question which sex I like. I am totally straight, I look at men, sometimes, but I like females. Sometimes. I have never been in a relationship, but trust me I like females.
The reason that I am talking about this topic is because I have felt loneliness for most of my life. Like I said, I haven't been in a relationship, like ever. I don't count the online relationships that I've had as real because there wasn't any emotional involvement . Being single is fun at times, but when you are single for a majority of your life, that is a different story. You get accustomed to being alone, but there are times when you feel bad, like you aren't worth anything. That no one wants you and that you should change that. I don't know how many times that I deleted and downloaded Tinder off my phone.
Love is just an unseen seed that should be able to grow and flourish, but because I avoid it, I never see it and it can't get nourishment. This is how I feel at times and it is sad that I feel this way, but it is the truth. Look into the eyes of the person you love and keep looking to find the thing that you will hold onto forever. Inside those eyes are a hidden persona that they will only show to the person that they hold deep and you better hope that you are that person because if you aren't, why are you there.
