“You’re just a body”
Those four little words killed me, they burned like the first time you get Germ-X in a paper cut. They followed me around everywhere I went.
I thought that the only thing my body was good for was to be the pleasures of others, for you specifically, when you made me feel like so much more. I freaking praised you, always making excuses for the way you treated me.
You had been through so much… so no matter what you did or said to me, I always found a way to forgive you. I should not have been the one apologizing all the time because you had been at fault all along.
I fought against my mother, my friends, and my family to do what? Say you were a good guy and that you had changed? We both know that’s not true. Everyone was right about you. You would break me down all the time and I kept making excuses.
Who on this planet doesn’t have flaws? I am well aware of my flaws and issues. But you had no right to make me feel the way you did.
I always found myself coming back to you.
You’d say something that gave me hope, which you did, in fact, care about me. The idea that you had used me for my body had always been in my head, telling me that all I am good for is my body? There were always tiny glimpses of hope that I am good for something more, I never let those little moments go. For example, you’d hold my heart with tender care. The kind of tender care that a lion has before he kills its prey.
You came around and explained how you felt, in those four little words, “You’re just a body.”
Explain to me, what happened in your life that makes you feel entitled to use women for your own greedy pleasure? PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
How can those words slide so smoothly off your tongue and nobody can tell you’re lying through your teeth? How many women have you degraded to believe that they are only good for their bodies?
To all girls out there, you need to understand that you are worth so much more than that. The way he used you, does not define you as a person.
The way he used you as a person, it is not who you are. You cannot change the person they are destined to be, and you cannot change what happened. All you can do is overcome it.
These four words will make you stronger.
