Darkness, then a thump. And then no whisper, no sound at all. Dead silence was felt all throughout my hollow bones. I had no one to go to. I was left with a undefined being of a soul.

Weightless I floated, breathless I waited.

What was next could come at any moment or at any instant.

I wanted to know what was going to happen. Because in the next few moments of this life my future would be decided forever.

And I'm off, Five Mississippi, breaths are slowly inhaled and exhaled.

Four Mississippi, my fingers start to lose feeling.

Three Mississippi, I start to whimper as I'm about lose all sanity in what is this so called reality.

Two Mississippi, impatiently waiting ever so slightly for this treacherous experience to begin.

Then, one Mississippi, my heart leaves my ever dying soul.

Nothing, nothing, nothing, then bang, it hit me. Like a concrete wall being plowed through by a freight train. Just lying there ever so painfully knowing what just occurred, tormenting me like nothing ever could. Coming to a conclusion within myself as to what I just witnessed and what I just felt was something that not only could be not thought of, but something that plagues all of what has been dreamt of. I realized that in that mind killing and heart compressing moment that what I had once loved was now just an inevtiable mystery for someone else to solve.