I know I'm only twenty, and some might say I haven't even started living yet. But it sure feels like it. This week, a friend and I went to Cici's for dinner and unexpectedly spent a while talking about how different life is than we had imagined. We thought we might be married, or at least engaged. We thought we would have our life together by now, or at least have a plan.
But I don't have a plan. I did when I got to college, but I've realized that what I had picked out as my career is not something that would make me happy. As of right now, I'm in my junior year of college, and I don't know what I'm going to do upon graduation next year. I'm aware I have some time, but I just wish I knew now. Should I go to graduate school? If so, where? What degree should I get? Straight into the job force? I need experience; where can I get an internship? So many questions and no answers to be found.
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Relationships are also hard. We are getting to the age and stress level in college that we don't have time to waste on people who are only around during the good times, and absent during the bad. We are still trying to figure out who we are, and that's a hard enough road as is, without friends, family, and significant others trying to grow with us.
I currently am in a sorority, write these articles, have a job, and my degree. Not to mention family time, social life, and general hobbies. I'm aware I chose all of these things, and they all make my life better and make me happy at times. I'm learning how to cook, too. I know, I know, it's okay to laugh! But sometimes I feel like a failure that I'm not magically an awesome cook. If I can't cook dinner, how can I do this life thing?
This article doesn't have a lesson or a solution. I don't think there is one. But if you are thinking to yourself, "Does anyone else's life suck right now?" Yes. Yes, it does. You are not alone, and we will get through this.
