Ever since graduation, when I see someone I haven't seen in awhile, they ask me how I feel about being graduated. I never know what to say. I feel like people expect you to be so happy and excited about, because you just think "they're done with school so they must be happy," but that's not always the case. If I'm being honest, I have to say that I'm not near as happy as I thought I would be.In fact, I just realized I'm depressed and have been for the past two and half months.
I thought I would have a full-time job pertaining to my degree, by now. I thought I would have more money because I'd have more time. I thought working all the time would be better than going to school and working. I thought I was so over school, but I've quickly realized I thought wrong.
You know how people always tell you that you'll miss school and you continuously reassure them this well never be the case? Yeah, that was me about four months ago; I couldn't wait to graduate and work full time -- ha -- now I would give just about anything to be back in school.
Of course I don't miss the assignments and tests, but I miss learning and having somewhere to go everyday, other than work. I miss having a set schedule and having something to look forward to -- graduation. Now I can't seem to find anything to look forward to, the rest of my life is basically just going to be devoted to working in order to support myself. That's depressing when you really think about it.
It's been almost three months since my college graduation and I've been more stressed out than ever before. I've fallen into a phase of depression because I don't know what I want to do and even though I have the degree I don't feel qualified for half of the jobs I want to apply for.
People kept telling me that I just need to be patient and a job will come my way, but I've never been good at being patient. As usual they turned out to be right. After months of stress, a lot of tears, and headaches I finally have a job offer. A job offer that I am excited about! I can't wait to get my foot in the door with an amazing company and figure out what career path I want to take.
So the moral of this story is that post-graduation life isn't always a field of daisies, sometimes it's a weed filled mess, but eventually you'll make it to that field of daisies. It's okay to be depressed or not be depressed after graduation. Just don't be too hard on yourself, you're still getting a hang of this adulting thing.
