As a young kid, I was afraid of normal kid fears like the dark & spiders. If anyone ever asked me what my biggest fear was though I would instantaneously reply death. That’s not a normal response for someone who is young who really does not understand the concept of death but instead thinks they’re going to be in this world forever. Of course, everyone knows that time on earth is limited but do we really act like it?

1. Some of us may- by being grateful for every single thing that comes our way (good & bad)
2. Some of us may by always taking chances and risks because YOLO (you only live once that’s the motto n***a yolo – champagne papi)
3. Lastly, some of us may by simply living in the moment always

buuuuuut, how many is “some of us”. I sometimes forget that my time on earth is limited. I take life for granted on a daily basis:

I BARLEY take risks

I never leave myself vulnerable

I get upset over the dumbest things

I cut people off if I feel like they’ve harmed me (1 strike & you’re out)

I am afraid to fall in love

I don’t want children

I am impatient

I’m uptight

I always say I want a better body, but I don’t put in any work

I hate the school I attend

I have petty arguments with people

… the list can go on & on.

God forbid, God called me home today/ right now… I would be content with decisions I have made thus far in my life HOWEVER I would wish that I would have:

Taken more chances

Been happier than I am

Not let the little things bother me so much

Not been an over thinker

Told people I loved them more often

Fell in love

Have the body I am capable of getting

Loved college

Made the best of what I have and not want want want more

Death is something that puts everything into perspective. You hear about someone who passes away- and you think WOAH. That person isn’t that much older than me. That person was just smiling on FB the other day, that person had so much more life to live. However as scary & heartbreaking as it is : death is inevitable . but I feel most people think “we have so much more life to live, we’ll be alright”. Some of us may have more life to live, but some of us don’t. I just wanna be happy in life. When it is time for me to go I want to be 100% content with how I lived my life out. I want to leave this world knowing that I made a difference, that I had fun, that I laughed all the time, that I lived the life I loved wholeheartedly.

I vow to :

Be nicer

Smile more

Work on my relation with God

BE HAPPIER

To live my life to fullest because idk when it’ll be my time to go . .