I have always been the person who wants to have a plan for everything. I'm not really a "go with the flow" type of person and I always thought that that was okay, until I realized that not everything always gets to be planned out. Over the past four months I have greatly learned that even though you don't plan for something to happen, it can turn out to be a blessing. Sometimes, when you are too busy making life plans, life decides to throw you a curve ball and completely change everything. I should probably explain..
There I was, end of my senior year of high school. Ready to say goodbye to the town I grew up in and people that have become like family. I had college all planned out and was excited for a new start. College was quickly approaching, and just as any person would be, I was a little nervous to be going away from everyone and everything I knew. My first semester flew by and I met some of the most amazing people and made some of the best memories. Before I knew it, winter break was right around the corner, and I was excited to spend time with my family and friends I hadn't seen for a while.
My winter break consisted of amazing concerts, awesome family time, and last but certainly not least surgery. Spring semester was just days away and I knew I had a huge decision to make. The surgery didn't work as it was supposed to and I knew I couldn't go back to college. I visited with my sister about it a little, but it took me until two days until I was supposed to go back college to talk about it with my parents. I think they knew it was coming but I didn't know how to tell them or what to even say. I had never let my vascular malformation get in my way and in my head at the time that was exactly what I was doing.
So there I was. Packing up the dorm I had just moved into, saying goodbye to people that had become some of my best friends, and leaving a place that made me happy. I knew it was the only option, but that didn't make it any easier. Taking all online classes as a 19 year old is not all that fun, but it's what needed to happen. My freshman year didn't go the way that I thought it was going to go, but it was still filled with amazing memories, friends, and lots of happiness.
This isn't a sad story, really. Sometimes things just don't work out the way that we want them to and even though we don't know why, there is always something greater at hand. Relationships, school, and just life in general can really suck sometimes. But just because something goes wrong in your life doesn't mean that life stops moving. Every year, every month, every day, every second is a new chance. Yes, everyone's life is hard, but everyone's life is also pretty great. You're alive, you're breathing, you're living. So stop planning your entire life and stop dwelling on things that you cannot change because in the blink of an eye, life changes.
