As if life wasn't stressful enough for a college student, senior year is the year that you're still in school but trying to get your foot in the door of the real world. It's extremely difficult to do this, especially if you have no idea what is in store for you after graduation.
Yes, Tyler Oakley, I too am physically dying. I thought I had my whole life figured out after graduation, and then life takes you through leaps and turns and pretty soon you don't even know where you're at and now you are totally lost.
So what do you do in this situation? Do you do what you think is best for yourself, listen to others and what they think you should do? Do you know what is best for yourself, or do the ones that care about you most know what's better for you?
Having this internal struggle myself, I know that I'm not alone, and that this is going to be a process. It's not going to be easy, and I have to know that the decision I make is the decision that is going to make me happiest -- and trust that everyone around me will support my decision.
I always thought not knowing what I'm going to be doing after college is a bad thing. But then this weekend I had an individual come up to me and ask me what my plans were post grad. I told her I didn't know, and I was prepared for her to tell me that I needed to figure it out, that I needed to do this and that.
But I was wrong. She told me to take it all in; take a year off if I have to. Actually, to definitely take a year off. Explore my options, travel, get to know yourself, and then when you're ready, you'll know. And that was the single most important thing I think someone has told me lately.
It's okay to not know. It's okay to be scared. It's just what you do with what is given to you that is the most important part. Either run away from your fears, or face them head on and make mistakes, learn, take that year off, or jump right into work or school or whatever you want. Because at the end of the day, no matter what choice you make, everything is going to be okay.
I will be alive.
I will have a loving family and boyfriend who will always support me.
I will be okay.