A random conversation with my suitemate yesterday has taken me into deep thoughts on whether college is worth or not. The idea of graduating a semester earlier hits me since yesterday. I think everyone probably has this kind of thoughts in their college years. I have come to the realization that am I really applying what I am learning in my major classes into actual working environment. I am 21 now and I am actually one step closer to adulting. My suitemate told me she wants to leave college a semester earlier and I honestly don't see why not. She is going to have all the credits she needs to graduate within this year and she said she wants to start working. Thinking about it long and hard, working sooner isn't a bad idea after all.

After working as an intern at a human resource and recruiting company, I actually gained more than applying skills and knowledge I learn in school. My colleagues all graduated with different degrees but what they share is the passion in getting their job done. I always limit myself to think about what I can do with my life after I graduate, like I have always been thinking I need to do something that is mainly related to journalism, which is like an actual reporter but after three years in college, I figured I may not be like other journalism major students because I simply cannot dedicate and commit myself in this field. Don't get me wrong, I like writing and reporting but then that's not me; that's not what I am looking for; that's not what I can see myself as and that's completely okay. My perspective has changed; I am glad I have learnt a lot in something I am interested in but I actually want to develop my passion.

I cannot really say what I am passionate in doing as of right now and I guess that's one of the main reasons I want to get out of college and explore. I think being passionate about something you do cannot be discovered in college, it is actually through working and getting a job, you will figure out the place that fits you; the place that you belong. So don't freak out, I bet almost everyone who just graduated from college that you will miss college much more and you will hate that work life. Perhaps, it is just me who is eager to be in a new environment and learn to be more responsible for my life. The first job you get may not be what you want, then quit and find a better one. I think this is the first step of adulting. It is not even about job hunting, it is about aiming higher. It certainly takes some time to find what you truly passionate in (for me at least), but sometimes, you still need a break from college?