To my ex "best friend,"
For a very long time, you were literally my other half, the glue that held me together. We shared more memories than I can even remember. You've seen me at my worst and you've helped me get to the best version of myself. Unfortunately, dropping our friendship is what got me here.
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We were inseparable, you were my family. We went through so many phases together, from going out and drinking to becoming mothers. You saw me through it all. But there was always some part of me that knew you didn't value our friendship the same way I did. I loved you so much and you were a sister to me and I would've done anything for you. However, it didn't seem to be reciprocated, it was always me trying to hang out and me trying to even just have a conversation.
Why was it like this? It's simple. You put every guy you dated before me. Even the guys who were only there for one reason, you still chose them over our friendship. The straw that broke the camels back was when you started secretly dating someone that I used to have feelings for on and off over the years. You didn't even tell me, you hid it from me. No this guy and I weren't serious, but when I know you tried to get with a guy from my past before, it really got under my skin, because that was just one more thing you lied to me about. When I confronted you about the second one though, all you said was "sure am" and that's the last thing you've ever said to me. I decided then and there that I had no interest in being your friend anymore because you so obviously didn't care. You proceeded to blast this new relationship all over social media and you knew exactly what you were doing. But I wasn't jealous so if that was your reasoning, to rub it in my face, you failed. I was amused by it and it just kept adding to the reasons why I was done. I eventually hid you from my timeline and deleted you on other forms of social media, but it's been 8 months since we've spoken. You now have me blocked on all social media platforms, probably because I deleted you first.
So that's where we are now. We hate each other. We're missing out on our children growing up together as we always talked about. My son loved you, he lit up whenever you were around and I loved your kids like they were my own and thats what breaks my heart the most.
I think there will always be a part of me that has a place for you in my heart, I just don't see our friendship ever rekindling and I don't need it to. I have a best friend, someone that was always there for me when you weren't, someone who has stuck by me way longer than you did. So I'll keep your secrets and the tattoo we have together. I'll wish you and your family the best. But I do not miss you. I miss the crazy fits of laughter we used to get into, I miss all of our inside jokes and the adventures we went on together. But I don't miss YOU, I miss who you were or at least who I thought you were.
