Dear future me,
As junior year is coming to a close, it's time to start looking out for you. Planning for the road ahead is tough, I hope I'm not going to let you down too much. College, jobs, after school activities, teams, community service, honor societies; the list could go on and on but at the end, it comes down to you.
I really hope everything i'm working for pays off. Did it? Am I as successful as I'd hoped I'd be or did I fail miserably? Did the one math test that I failed ruin your life or are you just fine? Is the stress now all going to be worth it? I sure hope so. Honestly, I hope you got everything you deserved. You keep inspiring me to push through to the end of high school. I have one more year left and it needs to count because if I don't make it count, i'm almost positive you'll regret it. How is the family? Are you still fighting with mom about grades or are we over it? Do we still have the same friends or was there a fallout? I hope we have the same friends because currently they mean the world to me...but maybe you met better ones along the road. When it comes time to finalizing my college list, then picking one will I make the right decision? Will all the hard work I've been trying to put into making you be the best you can be, be worth it?
How does everything end up turning out for us? Do we face a lot of struggles and pain or is it an easy walk in the park from now on? Is encountering new relationships scary or does it turn out to be perfect? Sorry, I know i'm asking too many questions but right now life is a little scary. I have NO IDEA what to expect or what to do. Sometimes I sit in my bed at 2 a.m. wondering about you. It's almost frightening thinking about you. Next year when we walk across that stage grabbing our diploma, I'm not ready for what's ahead. It's funny to think I won't be seeing these people ever again and it's strange to think at one point I won't be picking up my instrument to play everyday, or running into English to tell my best friend the latest gossip or walk around in crowded hallways with a million and one things running through my head because there's not enough time in the day. I have been trying to work really hard for you lately and I know no matter what happens, you will be alright because along the road there will be people to support us when we crash, catch us when we fall and give us a shoulder to cry on.
Most importantly, I hope you learn to love yourself. Currently there is a grey cloud above our head but maybe a rainbow will be soon to follow. I hope you find that happiness I have been looking for, for a while now. I hope you are actually happy with yourself, your life and everything else that matters to you.
I promise I won't let you down.
