Dear lost ones,

I hope heaven is fun. You deserve it. You were well loved and appreciated here on earth, so I know it's even better up there. We sure do miss you down here, things are different. Dad cries in his sleep because he misses you both, and I have days where the tears never cease. Momma sometimes cries and shuts everyone out. I know it hit brother hard. You were the strength of this family, and without you, we are weak. We are almost completely miserable, and we feel like its our fault. I do anyways.

To those I've lost, I'm sorry. I hope and pray with every ounce of strength I possess as a human, that you can forgive me for every wrong thing I've ever said to you. I wish, with all my heart and soul that I could go back in time and tell you that I love you... tell you that I miss you... tell you that I do need you.

Nana, If I had the power... I would go back to February 9th and I would call you back like I promised. I would have minded my tone on the phone with you, and I would have been so much more thankful for the little things. You have no idea how bad I wish I could call your phone and hear your voice on the other line. I miss you that much. Your obituary bookmark stays in the windshield of our little baby car. I see your sweet smiling face every single time I drive. I know you're always with me. You've always kept me safe, and I know you'll continue to do so.

Aunt Pat, you are the most helpful, humble soul I've ever met. You did everything in your power to always make sure we were taken care of. You never let us go without. You were my strongest prayer warrior, and I know you still are. I can see you now, sitting under a beautiful magnolia tree sharing lunch with Nana. Tell her I said hi. I'm sorry Pat, that I wasn't as close as I should have been. It sort of makes me feel ungrateful. I've always appreciated every thing you've done for me. I always will.

To those who have lost, we are not alone. Although sometimes we might feel like we need them back, know our loved ones are finally happy. Remember the last time your loved one made you smile, what was the reason? Remember the last time you two cried together, why? Remember what it was like when things felt right, like everything had finally fallen into place. Although losing our loved ones feels like a major offsetting, things will fall back into place, the way they're supposed to be. Remember the happy smiles on their faces, remember the sweet soothe of their voices as they comforted you in a bad time. Keep them alive through stories and memoirs. Know they are ALWAYS in our hearts!