To the one who checks up on me,
Don't.
You seeing me happy is only going to break your heart. Seeing me post pictures with friends is going to make you wish it was with you instead. Seeing me post pictures of me smiling is going to make you wish you were the reason. But you are not.
Do you remember all those times that I stayed up crying to you, asking you why my friends left me? It was not because of me, but of you. I guess they were not really friends at all. Were they? Do you remember the voicemail you left me? The one where you said you were always going to be there for me? Well, you are not. You up and disappeared; that is alright.
Truth is? I am moving on. I am happy. I have fallen head over heels for this guy. I do not know what to say about him without being rude to you. So I am not going to, because I do not have to explain myself to you anymore.
I just want to let you know that I am fine, and you do not have to check in on me anymore. Let me say that again: I AM FINE. My dad is gone, and so is the promise of you making sure I am okay.
I am pretty sure you will see this. I just want you to know that you will always be in my heart. You are my first love, that fact is not going to change. I just hope you get over whatever asinine feelings you have towards me, so that I do not have this sudden urge to run you down with my vehicle anymore.
I will always be your coach and #1 fan. Make yourself proud.
Thank you for showing me what I really wanted in a relationship.
Sincerely not yours,
Breanna