Dear former best friend,

It's probably been at least three years since we had an actual conversation. Crazy, because I always thought we would be friends forever. It would be much easier if I could blame it on a fight or something, but that's the thing: there was never really a reason why we stopped talking. It actually almost happened over night. One day we were talking and catching up after a semester apart and then the next day you ignored me and haven't spoken to me since. I've replayed that night over and over trying to put my finger on any reason I would have given you to never talk to me again, but I never found one.

I tried contacting you multiple times that summer, but never got a response. It was disappointing and came as quite a shock to me. We made so many plans to go on adventures during the summer and you just walked out of my life like I never even mattered to you. How could someone who claimed to care so much about me, just suddenly decide that I didn't need to be in their life anymore without even telling me why?

That was honestly one of the toughest summers for me and it was even harder without you to help me through it. That was the summer my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and I found out my parents were making me transfer from Colorado Mesa University . I could have used your support more than anything through all of that, but I didn't have it. Likewise, I'm sure you've gone through hardships over the past three years. I wish that I could have been there to help you. I've always wanted to be there for you.

Even though life has had its lows over the years, it's also had some pretty amazing highs that I wish we could have celebrated together. I wish I could have called you when I got accepted to do the Disney college program because we always shared a mutual love for Disney.

I always imagined standing by your side on your wedding day and instead I watched your special day through Facebook photos. We always talked about weddings together and even went engagement ring shopping back in the days when we were far from being engaged.

Just know that even if we never speak another word to one another in our lives, that I will always care about you no matter what. I know deep down that I don't deserve what you did. I still wish you nothing but the best in life and am glad that I can occasionally go on your Facebook and check up on you. You look like you're doing well and that makes me so happy. I'll always treasure the memories we shared and the fun times we had.

Love always,

Tess