Dear M,
I'll never forget the first day we met, I was a terrified high school freshman in a new school and you were the kind face that invited me to come sit with you. Never in my life has there been a time that I was more relieved. I sat down and a conversation started that then led to six and a half years of being stuck together like glue. So much life happened in that time, we grew from awkward little girls into strong women together. We had so many long heart-to-heart talks, the kind where we could pour out every single thing with complete confidence that there would be no judgement cast. Do you remember all of the nights where we laughed so hard and our stomachs hurt so bad that we swore we were building abs? Oh my goodness, those were the best! If I were to go through every single thing I remember from those days, nights, weeks and months that turned into years I would have to write a novel.
Yet after all of that life and all of those years here we are... Strangers.
You see some people in our position have the luxury of just a casual drift apart where life happened and blah, blah, blah. Unfortunately, we don't get that luxury. No! We know exactly what happened, exactly where everything fell apart and, we know exactly why. We both had our reasons, ones that we were passionate about and still stand firmly behind to this day. We internally combusted. The kind of combustion where there is no putting pieces back together. Everything will always and forever remain to be this pile of ashes and dust made up of memories, love, sisterhood and enough heart hurt to trump everything else. Would I do it all over again, knowing how it all ends? Yes ma'am, I would do it in a heartbeat because for that time and that season in our lives we needed each other in a catastrophic way. Once upon a time, I believed with everything in me that our babies would be best friends and our lives would weave together in some way, forever. Today I know that this will never be a reality. That's OK though because we did life together in a big way and I believe we both came out better because of our years as sisters. I will always and forever be thankful for you and no matter how much hurt exists between us; I will love you for always to the moon and back real slow.
Never Forget,
J
