A letter to the "friend" that never cared about me,
A lot of people regret friendships that have ended or have left them feeling sad. They regret having a friend that meant everything to them, but whom they meant nothing to. They think that their time was wasted and that one specific friendship was pointless. However, I do not believe that to be true for a second.
I need to say thank you to the "friend" that never cared about me. The one who acted like they would always be there for me, but when it came down to it, they were not. That friendship has brought me more than I could have ever imagined. It wasn't a waste of time but a blessing in disguise.
While I was in that friendship, I started to realize how that relationship differed from the rest. I noticed how when that "friend" would go M.I.A. when I needed them most, the others were right there by my side. Or when I would rearrange my whole schedule to hang out with my "friend", they couldn't be bothered to shift one thing in their schedule. I used to think that this friendship was pointless, until I realized how great my other friendships were.
So thank you, thank you for not caring about me the way I cared about you. It highlighted the authenticity of my other friendships. Thank you for not bothering to make time for me, because while you were cancelling, I was bonding with some of my best friends. Thank you for making my feel irrelevant. It is because of that feeling, that I have improved myself and made it a priority to make all of my friends feel important and necessary in my life.
You are partly to thank for my best friends. You are the one who made me a better friend. You are the one who made me realize that I deserve better and I deserve to have a friend who cares the same amount about me as I do about them. You are the reason why my friendships right now are stronger than ever.
Thank you for making me feel worthless, not needed, and bad about myself. Because of you, I know that I am worth good friendships. I know that I am needed from the people that I need most. I know that real friends don't make you feel anything less than amazing.
So thank you. Thank you are opening up my eyes and heart to the people that matter most.
Sincerely,
An old friend