Dear Best Friends and Not SoBest Friends,
You have all impacted my life in more ways than I can think of and I wouldn’t be the person I am today without all of you. I have become stronger, more independent, and more loving in all of my relationships. I have grown in so many ways and realized that every friendship had its purpose, even if they are no longer existent. My college experience wouldn’t be as amazing as it is without you guys.
So thank you…
To the ones that made me cry and the ones that made me laugh until I cried… I’m grateful for all of you! Believe it or not, I’m even thankful for the very worst of you.You’ve taught me that not every person I befriend in this lifetime will be pleasant, that the people you least expect to hurt you will be the most painful but it won’t kill you (although it’ll feel like it did), and that even in this cruel world there are still amazing people that will stay in your heart forever.
To the ones that use to be my world, but broke my heart...you taught me that even the greatest of friendships fade. You were my person, but then something tore us apart. Maybe it was neither of our faults or maybe it was both our faults. I can honestly say we fought hard for our friendship, but now we have other people. Even though they may not fill the holes in our hearts, we have new people that are there for us to make us smile. I can't explain how much I'll miss our memories and how much I will always wish our friendship never changed, but I have different best friends now. They are my people and they made me realize that things will be ok.
To the ones that let their own insecurities get the best of them… you made me realize that true friends aren’t suppose to secretly compete against each other. Friends are supposed to be your number one fans. Lost 5lbs? Great…show me how! Started talking to a new boy? Can’t wait to meet him! There shouldn’t be secret joys in the faults of the other. I realized that true friends should want their friends to look and feel the very best and be proud when they’ve achieved something, not gossip behind your back.
To the ones that have been there through hell and back (literally) … we made it out alive, and we did it together. You have been there since day one and we’ve trooped it out through the ugliest of battles. You made me realized that there are still amazing people in this would who love me for who I am and will fight for our friendship no matter what it takes. If people want me in their lives, they will make the effort just as much as I will.
To the ones that were like a bad boyfriend I kept going back to… I say this in my best interest, please don’t come back. I loved you and I always will but I’ve finally come to my senses. You have made me realize that there is nothing to be ashamed of for having a big heart. I want to see the good in the people that I love and sometimes I am blind to the terrible things they do to me. I realize now I am strong enough to say "No" and I am able remove myself from toxic relationships.
To the ones that are (almost) weirder than me… welcome to the club. I’ve never felt more myself since I’ve met y’all. The amount of fun we have together is unforgettable and I am so glad I have these memories to last me a lifetime. You're my shoulders to cry on, the ones that can make laugh until I cry, and the ones that accept me for who I am. You guys will be by my side throughout every single life moment. I realize now that it doesn’t matter how long you may have known a person, soulmates come in all shapes and sizes.
To the sh*ttest of them all, thank you for constantly testing my patience. I have matured in ways I never thought I could. Your purpose has been served… now please leave and I hope I See Ya Never.
To the very best of the bunch, I couldn’t thank you enough for keeping me sane and showing me unconditional love. You are my girls Forever. I thank you all for the amazing, and not so amazing memories; I couldn’t have done it without you peeps. Thanks for making me…. Me!
Love,
Me
