Wow. This is kind of crazy. I never thought losing weight would be this scary. I mean, sure, I've always known it would be hard but never scary. And I guess it's not even about the weight dropping is what makes it scary, but the things that I think while it's dropping. "I can't wait to be skinny." After I think it, I shake my head, slap myself and say "THAT'S NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT."

I want you to remember why you wanted to lose weight. No, being skinny was never one of the reasons.

You wanted to be stronger. You wanted to gain muscle and lose fat, to up your bench press and be able to see your leg muscles even more clearer.

You wanted to be healthier. Sure, you're health wasn't awful, but it could be better. You changed your diet to get more fiber, less sugar, more protein. You wanted to be a better, healthier you. You wanted your skin to clear up, so you cut all the junk out to let your skin breathe and get all the extra oil and sugar out of your system.

You wanted to feel better. No it's not because you were sick, but because you felt down. I'll be honest in saying that it is hard, very hard, to be 'fat and happy' when you're unhappy with yourself and how you look. You wanted to accept yourself for who you were.

Being skinny is a stupid thing to reach for. I don't want to be skinny. I want to be healthy, strong, smart, beautiful, happy. Don't forget why we started this crazy journey. Yes it's hard. Yes it is discouraging. But don't give up on yourself or give into negative thoughts.

We got this.

With much love,

Me.