Dear Me,

You know, writing to myself was something I was never fond of. I hate discussing my mistakes and all of the things that haunt me but I honestly think this is the best way for me to heal right now. So, future me, here goes nothing.

It’s now 3:40pm on September 2, 2016 and I am sitting in my friend’s dorm room. She goes to the University of Scranton in PA. It’s kind of funny actually to be sitting here. I never thought her and I would stay so close since our personalities clashed a while back. I’m really happy to have her around because without her, I’d probably be sitting home alone doing nothing.

At home right now Dad’s a mess. We got this new puppy who is such a terror! Jake would probably love playing with him, but Kong hates him. Coop is just way to excited which kind of sucks because as we are getting older, things are getting tougher. First off, Tuffi’s growing up and moving along. She’s not doing perfect but nobody is. Dad finally bought a new car which is awesome. He’s gonna be driving a Mercedes Benz! That’s crazy. Now for me, finally. As I've been growing up things have been changing and everything is happening super fast.

Right now I’m moving into sophomore year of college. It shocks me that I’m actually at my dream school. Ramapo has been a roller coaster ride of emotions for me and let me tell you that I cannot believe I survived my first semester. From all the late nights staying up late chain smoking cigarettes in the quad to all the sessions I crammed with Bri in the library, Ramapo has been an adventure. I can’t imagine what I wouldn’t have done without all the support I got from my friends there. Without them, I think my recovery would’ve went terribly.

Speaking of recovery, how are you now? I found out about a month ago that my case has been closed. We got closure and we won the fight. So Tori in the future, don’t ever stop fighting. I cannot stress that enough. Now that summer is coming to an end we are starting a new journey and it's time to have courage.

Buckle up and enjoy this ride. Stop stressing on the little things because I’m over it. We need to work together and get over it. These next years are your years, so make each day count. Stop being distant and start sharing your thoughts. What’s the worst that’s going to happen? People leave? Rumors start? You’re growing up and it's time to forget about all the mindless bullies and irrelevant things. Therefore, I’m going to leave you on this note.. please stop worrying what the world is going to say about you and always do what you want whenever you want because this is it, this is the end of your adolescence. Roll up to 20 in your prime!!