A Letter To My Mom As I Struggle With My Mental Illnesses | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Relationships

A Letter To My Mom As I Struggle With My Mental Illnesses

My mom is my rock, my light, and my knight in shining armor.

32
A Letter To My Mom As I Struggle With My Mental Illnesses
Alexe Bowlby

Dear Mom,

Loving me isn't always easy, trust me I know, but you always make it seem so easy. You never fail to say "I love you" every night, even when we argue about medication all day. I may not always say it back, but I want you to know that your strength inspires me to keep on keeping on.

I know it can be frustrating having to be in charge of dozens of medications and therapists and psychiatrists, but you handle it all with a certain grace. Most people would become stressed and want to quit, but you have never quit on me and words can't explain how much that means to me. Through all the visits and therapy sessions you keep a strong face on because you know that it is my time to be the vulnerable one.

You never make me feel judged for all the things that I do wrong or can't do because my mental illness won that day. You sit with me when the demons in my head are winning and you do the most you can, even if it's not much. Some days you are the only light I can see.

I know I have put you through a lot, attempted suicide and overdoses, but you have never let me down. It's impossible for you to know what's going through my head but you've exhausted all resources just trying to understand. I will never be able to thank you enough for still rubbing my back and telling me you love me next to my hospital bed, even though I was the one to put myself there.

Your love keeps me going. You have taught me to be strong and walk with confidence even if I'm walking through Hell, and these lessons are invaluable. As I sit here writing this, I have a smile on my face and tears running down my cheeks because for once I can say I am truly blessed. You have kept your calm and compassion throughout all my dark times and have given me strength when I ran out.

I know that now I don't live at home anymore we don't get to talk as much, so when we do talk, there is a lot I have to get off my chest, but thank you for listening. There's not much you can do from hundreds of miles away, but you still try your hardest.

I love you. And your love will help me fight my demons for the rest of my life. I cannot thank you enough for just being you and I hope you read this every time my demons make you feel like I don't care about you.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Featured

15 Mind-Bending Riddles

Hopefully they will make you laugh.

181173
 Ilistrated image of the planet and images of questions
StableDiffusion

I've been super busy lately with school work, studying, etc. Besides the fact that I do nothing but AP chemistry and AP economics, I constantly think of stupid questions that are almost impossible to answer. So, maybe you could answer them for me, and if not then we can both wonder what the answers to these 15 questions could be.

Keep Reading...Show less
Entertainment

Most Epic Aurora Borealis Photos: October 2024

As if May wasn't enough, a truly spectacular Northern Lights show lit up the sky on Oct. 10, 2024

8091
stunning aurora borealis display over a forest of trees and lake
StableDiffusion

From sea to shining sea, the United States was uniquely positioned for an incredible Aurora Borealis display on Thursday, Oct. 10, 2024, going into Friday, Oct. 11.

It was the second time this year after an historic geomagnetic storm in May 2024. Those Northern Lights were visible in Europe and North America, just like this latest rendition.

Keep Reading...Show less
 silhouette of a woman on the beach at sunrise
StableDiffusion

Content warning: This article contains descriptions of suicide/suicidal thoughts.

When you are feeling down, please know that there are many reasons to keep living.

Keep Reading...Show less
Relationships

Power of Love Letters

I don't think I say it enough...

453100
Illistrated image of a letter with 2 red hearts
StableDiffusion

To My Loving Boyfriend,

  • Thank you for all that you do for me
  • Thank you for working through disagreements with me
  • Thank you for always supporting me
  • I appreciate you more than words can express
  • You have helped me grow and become a better person
  • I can't wait to see where life takes us next
  • I promise to cherish every moment with you
  • Thank you for being my best friend and confidante
  • I love you and everything you do

To start off, here's something I don't say nearly enough: thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You do so much for me that I can't even put into words how much I appreciate everything you do - and have done - for me over the course of our relationship so far. While every couple has their fair share of tiffs and disagreements, thank you for getting through all of them with me and making us a better couple at the other end. With any argument, we don't just throw in the towel and say we're done, but we work towards a solution that puts us in a greater place each day. Thank you for always working with me and never giving up on us.

Keep Reading...Show less
Lifestyle

11 Signs You Grew Up In Hauppauge, NY

Because no one ever really leaves.

23670
Map of Hauppauge, New York
Google

Ah, yes, good old Hauppauge. We are that town in the dead center of Long Island that barely anyone knows how to pronounce unless they're from the town itself or live in a nearby area. Hauppauge is home to people of all kinds. We always have new families joining the community but honestly, the majority of the town is filled with people who never leave (high school alumni) and elders who have raised their kids here. Around the town, there are some just some landmarks and places that only the people of Hauppauge will ever understand the importance or even the annoyance of.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments