My soulmate,
It’s a little crazy and terrifying to think that there is someone in the world that is meant to be my other half, my one true love, my soulmate. We may have met before, we may have passed each other on the street as strangers, you may be living in a different country, but no matter where you are, know that your other half is thinking of you. Sometimes I wonder what you are doing, if you are thinking about me, or even searching for me. Most of the time, I question if you’re even out there. I know that The Lord has a plan for each of us, but sometimes I think you don’t exist. If you are really out there, here are a few things I want you to know before you make the crazy decision to love me.
I’m a broken person. I have had a lot of crappy things happen in my life; people have hurt me, people have left me, and I have lost loved ones. All these things have taken a toll on who I am and who I will be. I have issues and baggage that I will probably have forever. Will you be able to help me carry these burdens through life?
I’m not perfect, actually nowhere near perfect. I have my insecurities, I’ve done things that I shouldn’t have, and I’ve said some things I knew would hurt those around me. You may think and even say that I am perfect, but to myself I will never achieve this absolute perfection. You will probably be the only thing in my life that is close to perfect, and I’ll thank you for that one day.
I’m a strange soul. On the outside, I may look like a normal person with a normal job, and normal hobbies, and a normal life, but I’m not. I have little quirks and traits that make me a unique person. I sing horribly in the shower, I talk to my pets like they are actual people, I still play dress up like a 5-year-old girl, and sometimes when I’m cooking alone I pretend that I’m a host of a Cooking Network show. Will you be able to love all these weird things about me?
I’m an independent person. I’m an only child, whose mother used to work long hours during the day, so I’m used to being alone and doing things on my own. Everyone enjoys their “me time,” but sometimes I chose being alone over being with others, though being alone with my thoughts is one of the worst things I could do to myself since I tend to overthink things. Will you be able to understand that, and even help me break it?
I’m a family girl. I love my family more than anything. They have been there for me through hell and back. I know that they’ll love you, but that also means you have to love them back. You can’t be opposed to hugs from my aunts, firm handshakes from my uncles, and awkward hellos from my cousins. I’ll expect that you’ll ask my step-dad’s permission to marry me. Know that the second that anything big happens in our lives, I’m calling my mom because she is all I have left, besides you of course.
I know that you will accept me for who I am and I know you won’t hurt me like those before you have. I know that you will be there to help me carry all my baggage, you will accept all my imperfections, you will love my weird quirks and all, you will give me the space I need, you’ll help me learn to love being with you and those around us, and you will be the missing piece in the puzzle that is my life. The day I see that you accept me for who I am, the day I appreciate all your qualities that you may not like but still have, the day I can give you full trust, that will be the day I realize that I have finally found my soulmate.
Love,
Your Soulmate
