Losing someone is hard. Probably one of the hardest things you’ll experience. But there’s something kind of peaceful knowing that the person you lost is probably looking out for you and watching you from above. They aren’t suffering, and they aren’t hurting anymore, and knowing that is what keeps me hanging on. Now, I’m not entirely sure what happens to you after you die, but I do believe in spirits, and I think that they show up when you need them most. So, even though you’ve lost someone that you deeply loved, a part of them is always with you.

For me, when I think back to the most important person that I’ve lost, my mind instantly goes to my grandma. I know for many of us, we’ve all lost people who meant a great deal to us, and things probably haven’t been the same since they’ve gone. My loved one passed away in 2011, and I can still feel the pain all the same as the day she left. However, there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about her, and I think that’s something that most people can say about their loved ones as well. If there was any way for me to communicate with my grandma again, I think I’d be the happiest person on the planet. And even though she isn’t here physically, anymore, I know that she’s been looking out for me ever since. There are a lot of things that were left unsaid before she died, and there are a lot of things that I wish could have been different. But now that that’s too late, I have some things that I just want her to know.

Dear you,

I know it’s been a while since you’ve passed on. And I know that it’s been a tough couple years without you, especially for me. I miss you like crazy every single day, and I wish that there was a way for me to bring you back just one last time. I don’t even know what I would do if you were able to come back. I think we would have to take a trip to Florida, and I would just have to talk to you about anything and everything. I do think about you every day, and as redundant as it sounds, it’s true. There are so many questions that I have for you. I have so many memories of us, and each day I wish I could relive them all over again. I often wonder if you knew how much you meant to me, and I always hope that I’m making you proud. There are a lot of things that we won’t get to experience together, and it still breaks my heart. I wish you were there to see me off to prom, and I wish you were there to see me graduate high school. I’ll be graduating college soon, and I desperately wish that you could see me walk across that stage and get my diploma. You were one of the reasons that I worked so hard in school, and you will continue to push me to do the best that I can.

I hope that wherever you are, you’re resting easy and enjoying the “afterlife.” I’ll miss you until the day that I die, and I can’t wait for the day that we are reunited together. You made such an impact on my life, and I wish I would’ve told you that more while you were still here. But here is my promise to you, and I hope you know this, but I promise to work as hard as I can for you. I promise to try my best in school, work, and everything else in between. I will try as hard as I can, for the rest of my life, to live in your footsteps and make sure that people knew how incredible you were. I plan to do whatever it takes to make sure that you’re proud of me and everything I accomplish will be because of your help and guidance that you gave me while you were still around.

I hope you know that I will always miss you and I will always love you.

Love always,

Me.