First things first---I miss you both terribly. Before I got accepted into the program, I never thought that I would be able to live with more than one person. I didn’t know how I would function with people I had never met before. I had so many thoughts until I finally met you guys;
“What if I annoy them?”
“What if they don’t like my quirky habits?”
“What if they don’t like me period?”
I was so worried that we wouldn’t like each other and that the four months we had to endure together would be miserable.
Thank God I was wrong.
Bailey, we connected instantly through the glorious invention of Facebook Messenger. We were the first ones to talk to each other out of the roommates and we had promised each other to stick together if we hated the others.
Ha, others. We lost two roommates which brought our five-person room count down to three. And I truly think God did that for a reason.
Abigail, you were the first one I met in person and oh my goodness, it was so so awkward. I still remember getting lost in Park La Brea and driving around like idiots trying to find Tower 34.
Then we met Bailey and went on so many adventures our first couple of weeks, all of which were still incredibly awkward. I honestly felt out of place for the most month or so, wondering if we were all actually going to become friends or just tolerate each other for the duration of the program.
Luckily, the latter didn’t happen. We eventually found our rhythm as roommates and as friends. We spent so many nights cuddling on the couch and watching shitty movies (if I chose the movie, of course). We went on walks through The Grove, trips to the beach, sat on the balcony and "talked about life", and met Max, Jake and Zooey---can’t forget that part.
There were many nights when I was homesick and just wanted to lay in bed. Because of that, I missed out on a lot of the bonding talks that you two had. I sometimes feel that because of that, I'm not as close as the two of you seem to be sometimes. There were also a couple nights when I wished I had participated in branching out with our fellow classmates.
I think that’s my biggest regret, missing out on quite a few memories because I’m not used to being around people who don’t know/understand every aspect of my life.
But I just want you two to know that I love and appreciate you more than you will ever know. You two accepted me for every flaw I had and still loved me anyway. You picked me up when I was feeling down. You encouraged me to chase my dreams and passions and not let anyone or anything get in the way of that. You made me feel beautiful, important and loved every single day.
No one will understand the bond that we all share. No one will understand the inside jokes and the memories we shared in our weed-stanched apartment---which, disclaimer to others reading, was not because of us. Our neighbors just really liked to smoke weed and eat tacos all day.
I am just so glad that we ended up becoming best friends and not hating each other. I’m glad I had such supportive people there when I had those couple of nights when I broke down. I’m just really thankful to God for putting you two in my life.
It’s crazy to think that it’s been almost a year since we met and almost eight months since we were last all together. I cannot wait to be reunited with both of you as we continue to support and encourage each other through life.
You guys are such a blessing to me and I cannot thank you enough for putting up with me and being the amazing people that you are. I admire you both tremendously and I am constantly in awe of your talents and skills. We all have very bright futures ahead of us and I cannot wait to embark on those futures together.
Thank you for being you and thank you for loving me unconditionally. #3410K4Life
Until we meet again...