To My Best Friend In Heaven,

You gained your wings and I lost my best friend. I never could wrap my mind around the thought of losing you, but now it is a reality and accepting that is a battle of its own. My heart is shattered and every time I go to pick the pieces up it just hurts more and more. The pain is paralyzing and makes me go numb from head to toe. My life will truly never be the same without you living in it by my side. I miss you beyond measures.

Our friendship was unlike any other, and I will be forever grateful for that. You knew me better than I knew myself. It was you who could send me a text or give me a call and brighten my day no matter how dark I was feeling. You showed me how to look at life as a whole and not dwell on little things that would not matter in a few months.

When I first met you I knew that you would be very special to me just by the way you made me feel like I had known you my whole life. You turned some of my darkest days into memories I would never want to forget. I know that when I met you we were both working through our own very different struggles, but the way we came together to conquer them together was such a beautiful thing. I cannot even begin to tell you how much you changed my life these past few years.

I will cherish our memories forever. From our countless prom nights to spending cold winter days within the walls of a hospital room, each moment was special because it was spent with you. The secrets we shared and the laughs that lasted until our stomachs hurt. It was in those moments that I loved the life I was living simply because you were in it! We never let distance keep us apart. Every birthday and special occasion we shared together not because it was a holiday, but because it wouldn’t feel right to have it any other way.

I’m so thankful I took so many photos of us during these times. You always asked me why I liked to take so many pictures but I did not have an answer. I do now. I took those pictures so that I can hold them close to my heart during the times we are apart. I will cherish every one of those memories the camera captured because when I look at them I will feel like you are still here with me.

Living life without you is something I never wanted to experience, but I know you are watching over me, smiling when I crack one of my stupid jokes, consoling me when I cry and laughing when I fall up the stairs. You will always be with me in my heart because a piece of my heart will always be reserved for you. I will live every day for you because you are a part of me. I will be the person you made me and live on in the memory of you.

I will love you for eternity, my new guardian angel and forever best friend.