After the 2016 election I lost numerous friends, and it has been one of the toughest things ever. With the new year starting I just wanted to write this and say my last piece so I can move on. For those who dropped me after the election let me tell you how hard and heartbreaking it was for me. How could simply not speak to someone based on who they voted for? I may never understand no, but please understand how hurt I was. People called me horrible names that don't compare anywhere to my character.
But what hurt even more was that my mom was sick, and I just needed my friends there. I wasn't and still am not looking for sympathy. No. I was simply looking for comfort that only a friend could give. I'm looking for my friend to show up to the hospital and hold my hand while my mom is in surgery. I'm looking for my friend to call me and tell me it'll be okay. I'm looking for the friend to come over and keep me busy while I take care of my mom and don't go crazy. I'm looking for the friend that I could call when I'm crying because of how scared I am about my mom's diagnosis. I'm looking for the friend to call me up and ask how my mom is doing because we truly are family. I got none of that from the friends I lost. No one could put who I voted for behind them and just be there for me. Maybe I am bitter for saying this but I find it kind of rude. I don't care who you voted for if you needed me I'd be there.
I struggled with it for months, and even tried to talk to people and extend the olive branch. I was met with short answers, no response, or questioned endlessly for why I voted for who I voted for. It was as if I had just killed someone, couldn't you see I just wanted you there? Those that stopped talking to me were truly some of my closest friends. I have come to peace with it, and with the new year approaching I am done dwelling on it. I will always appreciate the memories we have together, and yes, if you ever need anyone even if it's at 4 am, call me. I won't stop being there for you, I know what its like to have no one.