"Two are better than one, because together they can work more effectively. If one of them falls down, the other can help him up. But if someone is alone and falls, it's just too bad, because there is no one to help him. If it is cold, two can sleep together and stay warm, but how can you keep warm by yourself Two people can resist attack that would defeat one person alone. A rope made of three cords is hard to break." Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
Put that verse into perspective. You're on a team with 23 other girls and guys, but when you're around this group of people, you feel most alone. Do you feel like this? This ones for you.
I'm this girl. I understand what it's like to love something so much, but hate it at the exact same time. To be so excited for practice and games, but dread it once it comes around. You have so much love built up for your sport, it's a second nature, but at the same time you ask yourself, "Am I even really a part of this team?" "Would they even miss me if I quit?" But that's the thing, you've been doing this for so long, if you quit your life wouldn't be the same.
You're probably the same girl who has trouble making friends, or the same girl who has an abundant amount of mental illnesses and a fake smile. I am among both of these categories.
Now, reread the bible verse. What does it mean to you? A team does not consist of one person, although some people believe it is all about them, it is not.
Let's think outside of the box here, they don't know what goes on in your head. You go into practice thinking, "I'm so happy to be here." But then you see the other girls cutting eyes at you. They don't know the things you're struggling with outside of this sport. They haven't taken the time to get to know you. They don't know what hell you've been through, or the demons you've faced. They don't know you leave practice and cry, because you were told you "weren't good enough."
They do not know your whole life you've been told you're not good enough, but look you made it. Remember that, you made it. You made it here without anyone and you can make it out without anyone.
You ARE good enough, it does not matter what they think. The only opinion that matters is yours and Gods.
Ask yourself these questions:
1. Have you grown as an athlete and a person?
2. Are you happy with who you are?
3. Do you say "I can't" even though you know you can?
4. Do you try to get better? Even if they can't see it?
These are all things to think about. You made it here. You ARE amazing. You CAN conquer. You CAN be the best. But to be the best, you need to believe in yourself and be the best YOU.
