Listen. I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been looking at all of our old photos and remembering all of the things we used to do. I remember all the cute outfits we tried on and splurged to buy because they looked just right. I remember the nights we stayed up late, just because we could.
But here's the thing. I think we need to break up. It's just not working anymore. I mean, for a long time I thought we could rekindle what we had. The sad reality is that it's not me - it's you.
See, in the last year and a half, things have really changed. I have a beautiful daughter running around the house who is full of love and life. A daughter who makes me laugh and reads me stories in a language that is all her own. Whenever I'm sad, she blows me a kiss and gives me a hug. She is the main reason I get up every morning. I love seeing that bright, shining smile.
We're just not in the same place anymore. My body is stretched and worn, and things aren't in place exactly where they were before. For a long time, I've been struggling with that. This isn't what I remember seeing in the mirror - what happened?
Honestly, I've been feeling really sorry for myself. But you know what? I'm so over that. Because this new body is beautiful! This body helped create and grow a young daughter. It carried her for nine months. It stretched and stretched - believe me, I have the marks to prove it.
I used to be so ashamed of my new post baby body. My stomach is bigger than I'd like. I have stretch marks on my tummy and on my sides. But I've started to realize that those marks are my reminders of what my incredible body did for me.
So what if I still have 10 pounds to lose to get back to my pre-baby weight? I gained 50 during my pregnancy. So what if I'm not back to my pre-baby size 6? I've worked my way from a size 14 down to an 8.
This body is AMAZING. It withstood the creation of another human being. And you know what pre-baby body? That human is worth WAY more than anything else in the world. Because she has become my world.