Dear body,

I'm taking you back. I feel like I have lost you ever since I came to college a year and a half ago, but it is time to have you back. I'm sorry I have mistreated you with bad foods and not properly exercising for so long now. College gets so crazy sometimes that I put you as my last priority to take care of, but that was wrong of me. You should always come first because you care for me. I want to help you be mentally, physically and emotionally stable at all times. I know some days will be harder than others to squeeze in that hour workout or 30 minutes of meditation, but you deserve it. How can I wake up every morning and take on the day if you are not healthy? I can't. That is why we are making a change.

I want to say thank you for putting up with me and my bad habits for so long. Thank you for dealing with my insane consumption of Oreos during late nights. Thank you for remaining calm when I wait until the very last second to finish a very important assignment; thank you for pushing through our workouts together even though I know you want to quit. You rock body. I don't know how I was so lucky to get you, but it is my turn to treat you right from here on out.

I realized after almost a year of "attempting" to routinely workout that it is all about the mindset. No one could tell me I needed to go workout. No one could make me eat healthy. I woke up one day, looked at you in the mirror and knew it was the day for change. I had to want to do it on my own for you. After months of creeping on beautiful, fit women on social media, I finally had enough. Why was I looking at people I wish I looked like instead of getting out there and trying to achieve that goal? Don't get me wrong body, I love you always. Even if you were completely out of shape, and I never thought I needed to make a change, I still would love you. But I know you deserve better.

I want to finally say I am sorry. I am sorry for looking at all those healthy, beautiful people on Instagram and then hating you for not looking that way. I am sorry for neglecting you but expecting the most out of you at the same time. You never deserved those negative thoughts. I promise I will do better for the both of us. I will workout every day I can, and I will not tear us down emotionally if I eat an Oreo. I am reclaiming you. We will work together to achieve the goals I have set and become a better us. I love you body.

-A Healthier State of Mind