I never really imagined what praying for my spouse would look like until I started to pray for him. My prayers consisted of how I wanted his heart to be protected from the world and what it could offer him. I prayed for his family, his relationships with his friends, and people he encountered, even the way how he would treat me. Above all, I prayed for his walk with Jesus. I inspired to know that he longed to be with Jesus even more than he longed to be with me. That he couldn't imagine his life without talking to his heavenly father daily and knowing his worth is solely in Christ alone.
As I began to think about my spouse during my times with Jesus, I could see how it affected me and my life. I wanted to better myself for him. My focus wasn't on me anymore, it was on both of us. I started to ask myself questions like "How could I be the best I can be for him?" or "What is it I can offer to our future marriage?"
I started to be more cautious about my physical being, my emotional being and even more so, my spiritual being. If I expected so much of my future husband, I am sure he would expect the same.
That's when it dawned on me, my future husband could be praying for me too. I was in awe.
Being a people person, I never expect anything in return. I am so used to doing so much for others, having someone do the same for me never crossed my mind.
If you are a man praying for your future wife, I just wanted to say I am so proud of you. I know we are living in a world where we are selfishly consumed with ourselves. It's impressive knowing there is a generation still out there who wants to find the best in their spouses and knows that only comes from Jesus Christ.
When you are praying for me. (the future wife) I want you to know it's not a wasted prayer. I believe that each day when I choose to better myself, it's because of you and your prayers. I no longer want to just think about myself, I want to think about us. Your prayers could be so specific and I know that only God can move through me, for you. So the times where I am really angry and want to yell and scream but turn to worship music and Jesus, I know it's because of you. (and God!)
You are so special. Thanks for praying for me whether it be daily or not. Thank you for thinking of me when you spend time with Jesus. Thank you for loving me so much that despite the hard times, you keep fighting.
You are worth everything I have to face. I will continue to be single while everyone dates because I am waiting for you. I will continue to seek him when I am lonely and know that you are doing the same. I will chase after purity in pursuit to give you my best.
I will continue to pray for you because I know God is working in you. I can feel the prayers you are sending my way working in me and I hope that you can feel mine stirring in you. I love you so much already.
Keep seeking Jesus because one day, he's going to let us seek him together.