To you my oldest, longest friend, you know who you are.

At least you should.

If I could take back everything that happened between us and the time that was wasted, you know I would. I hope you would do the same.

I want to tell you that I forgive you. Even if you never read or see this. At least in my mind, you know it. I also want to say that I am sorry too. I still love you and I always will. I think about us all the time. I'll see something anywhere that will remind me of us and I'll smile. It used to hurt and make me cry, but now I smile because of all the great memories you gave me. I hope I gave you the same. You have touched my life in many ways. I want you to know that I'll never forget you.

I know you'll do great things. You have a vision, a plan, dreams, goals. You always did. You sometimes were a bit extreme to where it was hilarious and gave everyone a "yeah OK" moment.

You're strong-minded, thick-headed, and much more. It is a compliment and you should take it as one. You never let people break you. You were close to breaking me at one point.

I wish I could tell you all this face to face but I never got the chance (or will) or you never let me. You'll do what you're going to set out to do, and I am happy for you.

As I wrote this a few days after graduation, I always thought we'd make it together. I have just now, been brave enough to put it out there to be seen. I saw us making it through our last summer and college move-ins and goodbyes. We used to talk about it too. I know you remember. During that last week I got to see you for a split second and I guess that was my goodbye. And I guess that is enough.

I wish you all the best in whatever you do in life and wherever you go. Thank you for the memories that I have of our nine years of friendship. We had some pretty great times together as children and young teens. I will keep those with me.

Maybe one day we can get together and talk about everything. Or even start again as grown and new women. I would really love if we got that chance.

Love,

Me