Dear ex best friend,

We were the textbook definition of best friends forever. We basically spent every waking moment that we could together, we had a best friend song, your dad called me his daughter, we would have retail therapy dates when we were sad, we fought over stupid things, when I walked into your house, your parents would say “welcome home,” and everyone knew we were a package deal. You knew my deepest, darkest secrets and I knew yours. You understood me and you didn’t walk away from me even when I told you things that would’ve sent other people running.

We had lots of fights leading up to the end of our friendship and as much as I like to blame those fights for the fact that we are no longer friends, they are not the reason. Those fights only occurred because we had been naturally growing apart, and you were the only one who had the courage to acknowledge that fact. I was still dependent on you because growing apart meant that we were growing up, the one thing I was terrified of. I would try to talk to you, which would usually result in a fight, but at least if we were fighting, we were talking. Eventually I stopped trying, and you did too, and we didn’t talk anymore. I still saw you around and for a very long time that resulted in hatred and anger. I was angry at how you could just throw away a friendship that had been so important to both of us. How you could throw away someone that knew all your deepest, darkest secrets, and not bat an eye, and continued to love you just the same as she always had, if not more.

I have recently learned that none of that was out of hatred and that growing up is scary, but something we must do. I’ve learned that growing up sometimes means growing apart and that’s okay. I’ve learned to look back at that friendship and be happy, that we had it while it lasted because you got me through some really tough times. I sincerely hope that you’re doing well now and, from the looks of your snapchat stories and Facebook profile, and Twitter feed, you are, and that makes my heart so incredibly happy because you truly do deserve the best. We may not speak anymore but I truly do hope you’re happy because you really do deserve the best. I’ll be cheering you on and wishing you nothing but the best. Even though we didn’t keep all of the promises we made, I fully intend on keeping one, and I hope that you do too. I promise you anything you need, whatever it is, whatever time, it doesn’t matter; I will be there for you, no matter what.

Sincerely,

Your ex best friend