Welcome to letter eleven. So far, you have seen some pretty low times in my life.
My career choices, my life. Everyone expects me to have a plan.
Big shocker, I am not the "planning" type. I am most definitely, however, the go-with-the flow type. I DO NOT have a plan for my life and I think that's why people are so ashamed of me right now. Like, who doesn't have a plan for the future? This girl. I don't want to be married, I don't want kids, I don't want a lot of things but that doesn't make me the Anti-Christ. I think the reason why people think I don't have a clue in life is because I am covered in tattoos, not like head to toe, but like from here to here. I have piercings, and I think they look super cool and I have no problem showing them off. But, I don't fit into corporate America, suits and ties don't intrigue me. I am more of a sweatpants and tank tops or skinny jeans and band shirts. There's usually no in-between. Maybe that's why I feel so left out of downtown in all their suit and ties.
Because I am constantly judged for not being constant. I get bored at one job, if I do the same thing over and over again, I will be super bored and less likely to do 100%. I get it, I'm 21, I should have a plan. Well I don't, I don't see much in my future, I'll worry about that when I get there. Am I there yet? I bounce around from job to job to keep me excited, to keep my life from molding into a blur. Sure, it doesn't look excellent on a resume, but I need spontaneous decisions in my life. It keeps shit interesting to be honest. I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis, you know when you want a sudden change or do something cool. My midlife crisis came at 21 and trust me, it makes me wanna punch a wall because I'm stuck between being too old to do things and too young to know better.
So three cheers to a -maybe- future. Let's see what tomorrow brings first.
