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It has been a year since I watched "Twin Peaks," read the books or really even thought about it. I listen to a few songs from the show regularly, but aside from that, and the occasional owl appearance, 'Twin Peaks" has been far from my mind.

But, within the last few weeks, the urge to return to the town of apple pie, dame fine cups of coffee and weird demonic entities all with the backdrop of sultry jazz. I've gone through a lot this year. I've mentioned it in several interviews how I've been struggling to find my footing, and how I've begun to find my footing.

It's been a period of growing up. And throughout the entire time, I have, in some way or another, seen owls in some way guiding. I know, I know that makes me sound crazy. But listen to this. Where I live, there really aren't any owls. At the least none that go "hoot." I'm not a bird aficionado, so I don't know all the sounds owls make. Maybe I live in a high population of the feathered demons, but if they aren't going "hoot," I wouldn't know they exist.

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But the night after I watch the original series finale of "Twin Peaks," I had to take my dog out to use the bathroom and what did I hear in the middle of the quiet night, that barely held a breeze? Owls "hooting." It horrified me because as the show says "the owls are not what they seem."

And since then, I've seen owls everywhere. I know, they aren't actually appearing. Owls are a common decorative piece and constantly appear on shirts and accessories. But I never noticed them, and the show's fixation on the creatures brought the constant appearance in life to my attention. I finally started to notice them.

Now I mentioned that they were guiding me as if when someone good was coming into my life, I'd notice one seemingly looking at me. I wish I didn't write the previous articles because they make me look foolish.

My family moved from New York, so since I was 17 I have been more or less lonely. I don't regret it. My whole life is falling into a direction that may not have been the same had I never moved. But I didn't really make friends my senior year. I did in college, but I was unhappy at my school and I transferred. I kept in touch, but it's inevitable.

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Then at work, I started to make friends, so the only empty part was my love life. That's where online dating came in. And I pretty much wrote about each experience under the guise of a "Twin Peaks" article, due to the constant parliament of owls. But each article started off with the same positive tone. Even if I had my doubts because a positive story is more enjoyable to hear.

But I was unintentionally forcing a connection because I was lonely. Now I wasn't forcing, but I was trying to look for things that seemed like a connection and held onto that when it wasn't really even there.

And I stopped noticing the owls. But then I met who I am with (and I don't want to say her name. I don't remember if I did in the previous articles I mentioned her in, but despite how crazy it may sound, I don't want to jinx anything), and I see owls whenever we go out.

So I maintain that owls have been leading me. And they've appeared in other areas. My new manager, during my interview, she had owl earrings. After finishing my last paper for school, I turn on the TV and an owl is on the commercial.

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And so, a year after I watched "Twin Peaks," I want to return, as did the series and see how it impacts me now. I actually found "The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer," written by co-creator David Lynch's daughter Jennifer Lynch. I forgot I had purchased it. And to initiate the process, I decided to read this book first.

Ironically, go back a few weeks ago to my article "Why I Started Writing In A Journal." I started writing in my journal about a month ago. And my introduction back into "Twin Peaks," the show that brought the owls into my life, is through the aid of a journal. I think there is an irony about that, and how the show has somehow impacted my life. I'm not even the biggest fan. In fact, a lot of the show I didn't like. But somehow the show created by David Lynch and Mark Frost has impacted me, and had a grasp on what has become one of the most influential, turbulent and developing years of my life.