Okay, Pop quiz, Who all has ever been to a church function? If the answer to the question was yes: here is my next question. Have you ever heard of the phrase "worshipping idols before the Lord himself" If the answer was yes, you will understand this article. If the answer is no you will still understand it because we have all been to this point. We have all loved someone unconditionally and have had them fail you. We have had someone put hope and faith within us and had them leave. There has always been one person that has made things make complete sense, but can also crash your whole universe to the ground. We have all had our god/ goddess, and we have all had them kill our souls when they left.
We have all been there. Love dissolves, family breaks apart, and the world you know feels like there is no true end. You feel like hells burning gates have blazed through earth, searching for your soul to devour. It is by far the most gut wrenching, painful discovery knowing that you are not cared for the same way that you should have been or thought you should have been.
So, Lets have another pop quiz, shall we? Cool. What do we sometimes do when the person that you have given everything for leaves? If eight out of ten of you say blow up the said persons phone, well, I am right there with you. I HATE being ignored. Even if it is just my friends, I make sure they answer me. (I am pretty blessed to still have friends that put up with me.)
Along with how we completely lose control of sanity, we also lose control of our emotions. Most of the time when this kind of pain happens to me I would lean straight to cutting. If I was hurting I wanted something physical to show for it. Emotions are for babies right? Lets just tear off part of our thigh, forearm, or wrist to have something to really cry about. That was never a smart way to deal with pain, because it was temporary, and yes, very self destructive. The most ironic thing is after I would cut, I would always listen to Devastation and Reform by Relient K. The lyrics "destroy everything I love" just spoke to me. That's the way I felt; I felt like I destroyed every part of my life.
Okay, guys, very last pop quiz. What is the smartest way to deal with emotion distress cause by someone in your life? Leave them. It is a hard concept to even feel yourself. Why leave someone you love so much? Because they are toxic to you. It is the hardest thing to do to separate yourself from someone. Once you finally do, and completely leave, you will finally feel liberated. It may take days, months, or possibly years, but it can happen. You will feel alive and happy again. No, death deserves to be at the hand of or because of someone else. Everyone has a God given purpose, use it. You can save someones life. You are loved. Go out and be the person they lost out on.