How do you know when you're in love? Is it the butterflies you get in your stomach when you see the person? Is it the aching feeling you get when they aren't near? Is it looking at the person and seeing more than just their looks? To me it's all of those and more. Love for me is staring at your phone waiting to hear when they'll be off work because you haven't heard their voice all day. It's giving them money for gas because you just got paid and they still have two more weeks and they are almost on empty. It's not just about rainbows and butterflies. For me, once I'm in, I'm all in. I don't give up easy. I'm not going to throw something away with one fight or one bad day. Love is being completely annoyed with the person because they keep clicking their pen or chewing with their mouth open but you choose to overlook those minor things because in the end it's really not that important. I know for me, love is something that I'm willing to fight for. I want to be best friends with the person I'm with. I want to wake up every day knowing that they have my back and I have theirs. These days I feel that couples give up so easy when things get hard.
Don't get me wrong, there are limits to every relationship and some just aren't meant to be. I just feel like people let go and give up when things get hard. According to the American Psychological Association about 40 to 50 percent of married couples in the United States divorce. Love and marriage are separate things but they are one in the same. If you love someone then you would want to spend your life with them. Marriage is supposed to be for life and I feel that many people these days don't see it that way. Love is supposed to be eternal. You don't just give up when things get tough. I want a love that never dies, even when you're out of the honeymoon phase, you still have that attraction and love for each other. I think I've found that. I think I really have found that. The feelings are so scary though. You never really know what the future holds but I really hope he's in it.