I am the most indecisive person I know.

Even the smallest decisions, like what color to highlight my notes with, is difficult. At this point, I have started three different articles and have trashed them all. I tried three different directions and none of them stuck out to me. So, as I sat here staring at a blank screen about to give up, I came to the conclusion that I could easily write about indecisiveness.

There’s an episode of Friends where Rachel nominates Phoebe to make all of her decisions, but Phoebe declines the offer because she doesn’t like having that power. On the other hand, Monica is super controlling and bossy so she immediately jumped in to take the role as Rachel’s decision-maker. Part of me would be okay with having someone like that in my life.

I struggle with making decisions because there are always positives and negatives on both sides. It’s frustrating not making the right decision, or worrying about how the decision will turn out. Although having someone make all of my decisions for me would relieve lots of stress and decrease the number of tears I shed, it’s obviously not realistic. I am a believer in making your own mistakes and learning from them. Without making my own decisions, I would never learn from my mistakes.

During this time in our lives, we have a lot of decisions to make for now and the future. We have to choose a major and think about a career, where we will live, how we will pay for that place, and so on. Then, even further we question whether or not we want to get married, have kids and be a soccer mom, or live life with a spouse traveling the world. The list of possibilities is endless, and that’s where I struggle! I need very few options so that it is easier to narrow down what I want.

It is difficult to make a decision at a restaurant where everything is delicious. You want to order a little of everything on the menu, but in the end, you choose one thing. Whoever you are eating with may offer you a bite of theirs. If you try it and like it more than what you ordered, you immediately regret your decision. I use food as an example because we all love food. But really, that’s how I feel when making decisions. I want to try out everything before choosing the one I like or have a taste of someone else’s life before making my own decision, but it doesn’t work that way.

Being indecisive isn’t something I boast about; it’s quite annoying. Once I typed the paragraph about Friends, I almost stopped and wrote a new article about how I’m obsessed with Friends. If you’re indecisive too, then I hope you can relate. Posting this article is a tough decision even though I post one every week, the same people read it, and it’s not mentioned again. Unfortunately, making decisions is a part of life. In the end, we learn from our mistakes, which forms us into who we are.