Warning: cussing is apart of my regular vocabulary
In hopes of maybe one day i could get my word out there. I'm going to say the normal regular stuff you will hear from anybody. It'll be fine. You'll be fine. Push through the pain please. What makes you happy? What is a good distraction from the pain? Use that until you are actually happy.
People always say only you can make yourself happy. You can't love someone until you love yourself. Hopefully I'm not the first person to tell you this. Fuck that. The amount of relationships I have where I love them. Rather or not it is platonic love. I have found the love of my life while absolutely hating myself. I love him. Being with people who actually make you happy allows you not to dwell on what you think is so bad about yourself.
I know everyone sees the flaws in themselves. The flaws you think are so bad other people don't see. Other people might even like that. They might even think it's cute.I can guarantee the people most important to you don't notice what you think is so bad. Those love handles or muffin top they don't see it as such a horrible thing as you might see it. They will love all of you because they love you. You are the one person they connect with the most. The one person who they want to wake up to all the damn time. Believe me if they've been around you for your morning shits, coffee shits, or whatever. They're staying. They truly love you even if your poop smells bad. They did their own thing while you're just sitting there takin a dump. That is a different level of love right there.
Many things will make you happy. Like I've already said one person can make you happy. That one tattoo you got. That one song. I'm sitting up late at night thinking how happy this one tattoo makes me feel. It was my most expensive tattoo to date but i love it. I'm sitting here thinking about this one song that's stuck in my head (fade in/fade out- Nothing More). Little things make me happy. Everyone has that little thing that makes them happy. You keep it together for those small things.