Be Still.
He says, “Be still and know that I am God.” -Psalm 46:10
I was furious with God.
I was in my car, crying and yelling.
“God, this doesn’t make any sense, are you even listening to me?”
Silence.
Not even a feeling.
I was angry because my heart was tired, and my spirit was exhausted. I was asking for confirmation, or at least reassurance, that The Lord was working because it honestly didn’t feel like He was.
I was angry with everyone for that entire week. I couldn’t carry a conversation with someone without getting frustrated.
On that Friday, I went to Bible study with youth leaders from church, and as we were having a worship session, my friend Josiah stood up and said something that literally brought me to my knees.
“Somebody in here is emotionally exhausted. You keep carrying it and praying about it and nothing happens. God wants you to know that He hears you and that He is working on it, so give it to Him.”
I fell to my knees and cried.
“God, you heard me.”
My spirit shook and I felt my Father’s voice say to me, “Of course, I did.”
God heard me in my anger. He chose to listen to me when I did not deserve to be heard.
He hears you. He hears your heart’s cry.
Psalm 46:10 says, “Be still and know that I am God.”
It does not say be still and hear.
It does not say be still and see.
It does not say be still and feel.
Know Who He is, know that He works all things for your good, know that He loves you enough to die for you, and know that He is there when you don’t feel Him.
He is always there.
He is listening to you, watching you, and taking care of you even when you can’t tell.
Trust His plan, trust His goodness-- even when things seem far from good.
Stop trying to create your own plan.
Stop trying to do things your way.
Stop searching for answers that you don’t need.
Just stop.
Be still.
You will find Him in the stillness.
The Prince of Peace will meet you there.
You will see Him. He will come to you, but first, you must quiet yourself.
God knows what He’s doing. Rest when your heart is tired. Rest when your soul feels weak. Just be still.