It all starts
small
It seems
insignificant
Harmless
I'm just trying to be healthy
I'm just trying to get leaner
I'm
just
trying
Can't you see
that I'm
trying?
Can't you see
the pain?
Did you know
there was pain?
Did you know
I was in pain?
Did you know?
Did you notice?
Why did no one notice?
That I was in pain
that it started out harmless
but became
dangerous
and all-consuming
and inescapable
That I couldn't stand the idea
of food
of people's judgment
of my body
of myself
How did no one notice?
How did
I
not notice
soon enough to save
myself
I guess we all
can't be
our own heroes
without some help
and the willingness
to ask for it